June 11, 1997
11:36AM EST

Argh.

I've been playing around with the link colors for this site, and trying to get the menu bar replicated throughout the site. Every time I think I've gotten it all, I find another page that I've missed *sigh*. I'm quickly coming to the conclusion that I'm not as good at all this net stuff as I thought. It's easy to get a swelled head on the Web, because it's so easy to get immediate results. So how come I always wind up having something that is half-baked?

I'm feeling particularly un-creative and brain-dead today. It's Wednesday, the day in which I have the least number of responsibilities at work, and the most space to do other things, but I'm not feeling partcularly inspired or inspiring. I keep looking around the web and seeing other people's glorious efforts and getting, once again, dissatisfied with my own.

Through this all, I have an incredible urge, to DRAW. I have a few new characters in the works and my fingers are itching for the pencils. The other day while I was at the park, I was also wishing that I'd brougt my sketch book because there was ample material to be captured on paper in the sweeping arcs of the trees and the quiet light of the evening.

I'm hankering after a real vacation as well. Probably because of the summer sun which is starting to shine, and the warmth and the hordes of tourists which have descended upon the capital along with the season. It's funny how you can pick them out so easily from the natives of the city. Invariably, even a native in shorts and sneakers STILL looks like a native. Perhaps it's because the people who live here have that same tired and resigned look, and an I-know-where-I'm-going attitude instead of the rank cluelessness that seems to hang about the visitors.

Anyway, I have this urge to get away from the city, perhaps go home to my folks' place, or take a trip up to Cape Cod. Sabs and I will be driving down to Atlanta at the end of the month, but this is highly unlikely to actually be very vacation-like, especially not for him, since he has to do all of the driving -- 620 miles south -- and we will be attending a science-fiction convention which doesn't really lend itself to R&R.

What I really want is a couple of days at the Anderson's cabin on Lake Wequaquet on Cape Cod. The breeze would be cool, the company pleasant, and the nights still and tranquil. I really missed not going to the Cape last year ...it was the first time in 11 years that we hadn't gone ... I hope my parents think about going this year ...

12:51PM

Ahhh .... I finally got all of the menu bars and indexes to match *happysigh* consistency is good ... really!