Okay, okay it's about time I put up today's rant.

I've been surfing around for hours now and not feeling particularly clear on anything, though I've had my brain jostled into thoughtful mode for the day.

So it's Tuesday and I'm back at work and I'm STARVING because the ATM broke down on me and I wasn't able to get any cash to buy breakfast.

This day has really started out badly, I don't know yet if it will get better.

If you support women's causes you might want to check out About-Face a group dedicated to increasing awareness about the image of woman presented by advertisers and the adverse effects on womens' self-image as a result.

I've also been corresponding with a gentleman from Mindspace about the nature of love and polyamory. Thoughts?

Sabs has just suggested that eating would be a good idea, and I think I'll take him up on that one. ... More later

Okay. So I'm back, and I'm just about to leave too ...

One of the best and weirdest things about the web is how all of a sudden you can find people out there from your past that you never expected to find again, and when you do, it's either a gasp of joy or a moan of despair at which point you close down the browser and run for your life.

A few days ago I came across two sites of people that I hadn't really wanted to lose touch with, but did through the vagaries of poor correspondance, distance and even a little bit of fear. This is because I tend to fear being annoying in my need to hold on to people. I fear being forgotten, because so many times I remember people and they, do not remember me. Or because I'm afraid that whatever bad ju-ju was still hanging around will be remembered and color future interactions.

This time, none of that happened. I was browsing around and came across Henry's site and was much gratified to read all about CTY therein. Since he hasn't put his real name up anywhere, I'll respect that decision and say only that this person was a very special friend and my very first boyfriend and it was very cool to find his homepage.

From the CTY alum links I was overjoyed to find Cyndy's page. Because she lived right nearby, I actually managed to stay in touch with Cyndy for 2 years after I left CTY. I had an enormously good time hanging out at her house and she introduced me to the "Rocky Horror Picture Show" and we actually saw it in a theatre with a floor show -- it wasn't a very good floor but at least this has saved me from being a 'virgin' at Rocky parties. Cyndy also came to my Sweet Sixteen party (which I shudder to remember because I'm TERRIBLE at handling surprise parties) and I wish I'd kept in better touch later on.